1st January 2011

First post of 2011!

I wish to share this.

“If there’s one thing i learn about success, it created through a performance of a few small daily disciplines that stack up over time to produce achievement far beyond anything you could have ever planned for. It’s choices and small behaviours that build up over the time. It’s a little habit that is easy which can make a difference yet people just don’t do it because it’s easy.

Failure, on the other hand, is just as easy to slip into. Failure’s nothing more than the inevitable outcome of a few small acts of daily neglect performed consistently over time so that they take you past the point of no return. But don’t give up. Don’t start to rush and dig for success. It doesn’t work that way. Think from a perspective of a farmer. Has patience and trust.

…Remembering the shortness of life strips away all the distractions of life and reminds us what’s most important.”

Hope this gives a strong opening in 2011. All the best!

31st December 2010.

Song has finally changed at this very end of Dec 2010. A single event, a moment of life changing. There will be a different set of game plan. No more mid-air hanging. I’m back on track and move on again! I’m absolutely happy of how 2010 end <— "Cause you're amazing, just the way you are!" Got to admit life is indeed a real roller coaster! Certainly a nightmare just ended but it also marks a beginning of unknown journey down to hell. I don’t know about today and I don’t know about tomorrow. Nevertheless I intend to stand strong to face it. Just need to always stay focus and act consistently. Just wait and see…2011!!!

Not that I am able but I’m grateful for the merciful Lord has sailed me through. In His presence I find my way on the uncharted map. Praise the Lord for His lead. I am also indebted to dear family and friends, for continuously stand by my side giving all the necessary supports. Thank you everyone!

“Cheers to a New Year and another chance to set it right!”

**Officially check-out 2010.

End-Beginning

“Glory to God in highest heaven, who unto man His Son hath given; while angels sing with tender mirth, a glad new year to all the earth.”-Martin Luther

Time flies …year 2010 is going to end and I started to look back counting blessing along the way. Not much and not less. Joy, laughs, tears and sorrow I lived them all. I won’t say it’s a very fulfilling year but I’m grateful for everyday I lived. I started 2010 with a broken heart and without expectation. Regret, I have few. Often my heart grounded by the gravity. Although I’m still hanging mid-air right now, i know I shouldn’t lose heart. At least, half of it back to the way it suppose to be.

I foresee 2011 will be another challenging year for me. The pattern might not change drastically but a certain type of direction will lead and different set of face will set in. Next year await for another new voice.

As Oprah says, cheers to a New Year and another chance to set it right. Therefore, I intend to make a change. Not something unrealistic. Simply to get hold of my life, get simple, eat and live healthier, more forgiving and SMILE.

Last but not least, my gratitude flow to the person who brought me here otherwise I won’t be writing. It’s being a great writing year! Also many thanks to those who stay with me on this little page throughout.

Cheers! Prost!

Here’s how i feel about 2010 towards people and things around me, by song and music.

[January] Right to be wrong- Joss Stone
[February] Fix you- Coldplay
[March] Ii Adagio Sostenuto – Rachmaninoff
[April] Turn back around- Lucy Schwartz
[May] When your mind made up – Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova
[June]One last breath – Creed
[July] Burn it to the ground- Nickelback
[August] You and I – Ingrid Michaelson
[September] Sitting, waiting, wishing- Jack Johnson
[October] Beautiful- Eminem
[November] Way back into love – Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett
[December] As time goes by – Frank Sinatra.
[NOW ] First day of my life – Bright Eye

“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called “Opportunity” and its first chapter is New Year’s Day”- Edith Lovejoy Pierce.

Me

We creates the lives we get to live. Many factors will mold and shape our life along the way too. But do you reach your end in knowing you played well and in noisy celebration for having the boldness of spirit to have constantly confronted your fears, never back down and possibly stand as a model to loved ones?

OR you reach your last day full of pain at the realization that you can do better, be more inspired, regretting that you never took a bold risk and that you just wasted life.

Visiting your mortality reminds you that your months are numbered. Although my life had filled with anxiety and senseless distraction but i don’t wish to lose sight of all i could do….what’s important. It’s time for me to have a good hard look at myself.

What do you call ‘love’?

I decided to write this after kept the thought for a long time. It doesn’t matter who’s going to read or if you are reading now. I know the best is just to let go. Laugh, if you think I am an emo or whatsoever. I couldn’t care much. You know, there’s an ego in me like any other man. But, i am also a man that born with a heart. Letting go… just another way of saying let life goes on. I should ‘live’ my life.

In a very brief encounter of a thing that we called ‘love’, was such a mysterious experience. It robs my mind and senses. It made me an addict and blind. It made me to believe, to follow a dream and to follow a special pattern of way to my fantasy. Day by day is a marathon of hope.

But I realized that it never an easy journey for me to love and to let go. Falling in love or losing love is equally causing a rollercoaster in life. It happened because i care. Love made my heart alive and to bleed too. It doesn’t care if I’m afloat or how fast i fall. There’s a time, no matter what I do, I never fill in the gap in my heart. I couldn’t see tomorrow and I couldn’t smile. It’s hard for me to see things ‘like before’.

Broken heart is hard to mend. Time doesn’t really cure but time let me learn along the way. I took time to mend the surface but deep inside it never takes too long for me to be on my knees. Yes, simply that fragile. I can only hold my head and cry hard covered in my hand. Can you cry when you never in love?

Love is always a mixture of pain and pleasure. Sometimes, fly high in the sky, sometimes I am on the ground. Love can cause me to enjoy the same routine everyday and even for many years. In the very limitation of love, i try to love to my very best. As much as you can plan, that much you can crash. I created memories but they drive me crazy at the same time.

There is at times love not returned, not reciprocated and I’m left in pain and an empty heart listening to song over and over again. I’m that fool. I say I will never love again. I’m sitting here now…waiting for sunrise.

“It’s being so dark since you being gone. After all you are the one who turn me off.”

I always curious what do you call love?

Delicious potatoes!

I went to IKEA to seek idea and grab some stuff. I always love to go there because of the ‘home’ and comfy environment. Price can be reasonable when on sale. So, it’s Saturday morning. Traffic was good and smooth. There are ample of parking and not too many crowds in the store. I really like that.

It was fun to have kids running around although I think they should just hold in the playroom. Tour the store really enjoyable. Beautiful ideas can be nice to view but not necessary practical. But the armchair, cushion, sofas are very comfortable. I nearly sleep over on the bed too.

After 2 hours I’m hungry and find my way to the heart of the store where the restaurant located. The queue was long. But it was efficient and fast. Only waited around 15 min. I ordered meatballs and turkey sausage.

Now, how the food made me feel. First, I noticed the meatballs shrink by almost 15% since 6 months ago. However, the taste doesn’t change much. That’s consistent. The turkey tube of meat was tasty with great smell of herbs and the texture neither stone-hard nor fluffy. The only thing was the portion which supposed to be a huge sausage but no. Much thinner than the one you can see above.The sausage comes with potatoes and beet root. The beet root tasted like sweet pickles but the potatoes surprised me. They were delicious! It creamy softness melt in my mouth. Flavour’s good too. Just enjoy it.

I would say the food here wasn’t bad although not super great.

Had my lunch, got the things wanted and it’s time to check out.

Extreme 6 Cheese Pizza

Pizza Hut’s recently introduced a new Extreme 6 Cheese pizza. According to their website, it’s loaded with cheddar, mozzarella, parmesan, provolone, monterey jack and romano. A mix of cheeses so good, you’ll do anything to get it! It’s a cheesy goodness that will satisfy any cheese lover!

Sound good? I love cheese but i doubt these. Heh, I was curious enough to give it a try. So I happily drove to the nearest outlet. There are not many people in the pizza place, felt like reserved the whole place exclusively. Good. Quiet environment means I can enjoy the food peacefully. Ok, let’s proceed.

I think they served pretty slows. I can’t stop thinking of the melting cheese. I’m hungry.

Finally!

Smell alright but WHERE ARE THE CHEESES?! I thought I will have a great first bite on the slice, but …the pizza didn’t live up to my fantasies…it’s rather normal. I think the amount of cheese was not enough. It’s not cheesy. I requested for extra Parmesan (the least) but was given Tabasco instead! No freshly grated Parmesan or anything. No extra cheese. All I taste a bit more of mozzarella and nearly flavourless. The others cheese are missing! But the thick crispy crust good enough with chew and a little char.

I don’t hold the dish against Hut’s; it’s really outside the expectation and it’s tough to imagine having a disappointing pizza there and loaded with 1000xx extra calories!